Joanna's Testimony

My name is Joanna. I'm 27, Polish. Since July 2006 I've been living and working in Northern Ireland.

    A few weeks ago I was asked to translate from English to Polish some testimonies of God's Healing power, for my friend who is involved in prison ministry. I must say it was a privilege to read all those real stories of people being healed. Amazing God, the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. Praise God.

    The first time I came over here to Northern Ireland in June 2006 was just for a summer. After my graduation, I flew to NI again. It was July 2006. Summer was over and very soon after that my lovely perfect planned life started getting crashed on the floor. After seven years of being in a relationship, all my dreams, my plans, my expectations, it was all gone.... For a long time I couldn't find any job. That was only making me more depressed, frustrated …and I felt very low. Alone, far away from home...foreign country...that was too much for me.....I was just watching like my lovely, perfect, planned life turned into a different direction and I couldn't control that....Nothing was the same any more.... All I wanted to do was just to run back to Poland.

    In that really bad time for me, my friend helped me a lot. She started talking to me about God in a way that was different than I was used to. She brought me to her church.... Whatever I saw in her church was totally different from what I used to know. There was more knowledge about God in my head, than true faith and love and passion in my heart as it is now... I have started reading the Bible. Something had moved in me that time.....

    In September 2007 I was born again and I took God seriously. First of all I realised that God loves me and I admitted that I needed help, I confessed to God that I have sinned and that I need His forgiveness. In faith in His Son the Lord Jesus Christ, Who died for me on the cross, I repented and decided to turn away from my sins. By faith I invited the Lord Jesus to come into my heart and life as my Personal Saviour, and by God's Grace to follow and obey Him as the Lord of my life.... "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish but have everlasting life" (John 3 v.16) I realised who Jesus really is and what He has done for me on the Cross and for many others. Jesus came to the earth as a human to be crucified so that you and I could be saved. He died and rose again, and it all happened because of you and me!! I realized that Jesus came and died for ALL my and ALL your sins so that we wouldn't perish, but have eternal life. That means that we can have a personal relationship with the Lord God. Thanks to Jesus we may live forever in heaven in blessing instead of the punishment and curse of Hell. And what we need to do is confess our sins to Him, repent and ask for forgiveness and invite Jesus into our life. And then by faith we shall be saved.

    Everything has changed since that. I gave my life to Jesus. I gave God the reins. I let go and let God! I gave God my broken heart. For many years I had been living in a trap of offense, and I didn't even realize that. For many years I was offended, producing much fruit such as hurt, anger, jealousy, resentment, bitterness, etc. Consequences of that in many cases were insults, attacks, wounding, division, separation, broken relationship, betrayal. I didn't even realise I was trapped. Many times I find the greatest hatred among people wo were once close...

    And when we are hurt, we build walls of protection to safeguard our hearts and prevent any future wounds, just as I did....filtered everything through past hurts, rejections and experiences. And without even knowing when it happened, my walls of protection became my own prison. I found only one way of escape. Only one key to freedom from the baited trap - the Love of God. It never fails, never fades, never comes to an end. It seeks not its own. It is not easily offended (1 Corinthians 13 v.5) Jesus indeed has set me free. Its like breathing with fresh, spring air. He fixed me. He rediscovered me again. Thanks to him I see value in myself. I can look at myself the way he sees me. Through my loneliness God helped me to explore my potential, value, skills. There is in me much more colours. There's no grey anymore. My singleness helped me develop strength in Jesus. I've been learning how to be patient, a real obedience and trust. Jesus showed me the way how to become a woman of excellence - the Woman He sees in me. Every day I learn the full meaning of being a Christian. Every day I learn not to take anything on my own understanding. Every day I learn to trust my Lord no matter what, no matter if there is an end of something, but also the beginning undiscovered by us...but rediscovered by Him...Every day I learn that forgiveness is a daily decision....and the hardest I've found is to forgive myself.....

    I still live in an ordinary way. Ordinary work, friends...but God made it extraordinary for me. He gave totally different meaning to my life. He made my life extraordinary. He's been using all my weaknesses and strengths to remind me of what he expects from me. He helped me to explore the inside of myself. He helped me to restore myself, and to rebuild my self-esteem. After my broken dreams, plans, God gave me the Light of the Word of Himself, and the light of friends who encourage me to live for Jesus. He helped me to rediscover value of myself. I made many stupid decisions because I was afraid to wait on Him to give me the best.....

    Today I know that I need to be sure that I build my life on God's revealed Word, not on what others say. I need to keep seeking the Lord and listening to my heart. I shall not say or do things just because everyone else does. I shall seek Him and stand on what is illuminated in my heart! All my life I've been looking for real love, and today I can say that I finally found it. It's Jesus!!! He is my first love, Love that awakens my soul and makes me reach for more, that plants a fire in my heart and brings peace to my mind.

    "Greater love has no man than this that a man lays down his life for his friends" - and Christ did this for you! Praise God for His Grace, for a love that brought Him down to die on a cruel cross! Thank God that there is forgiveness for all our sins, failings and let downs in our life! Every day is a new chance to serve with clean hands and a pure heart!

    I pray that if you don't know the Lord yet, that you will begin your everlasting life today by receiving and accepting the Son Jesus Christ into your lives, by faith in Him and His work on the Cross. I pray that you will invite Jesus into your life and accept the greatest gift of love for you, the gift of salvation. I pray that you will start your brand new life lived in relationship with God today. There is no better time than today!. In Jesus' Name, Amen.